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1-7-26 Office.  08:08… mood here is elevated.  Perfect for me, for a teaching day.  Three trainees.  Deck queued up, notes on other screen.  One thing I’m stressing today is INTERPRETATION. Of what you do. Yes, there’s a job description, and KPI’s, and quota, and all the entailed and expected and demanded.  But, how do you…

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Indecisive, just being honest.  What’s my focus, what is my subject matter, where am I an expert? Then I realize, too many fucking questions.  Taking a walk around the office after this interview… Interview over and day slows.  Meeting in 15 minutes, but nothing exceptionally pressing. Speaking for myself.  Moving for SELF, my character now…

Everything in this new year, especially Q1, is about Sales Heights ideas, getting out of sales and deploying differently its principles and sights.

10:48….  Refusing anything but ALL of it.  Everything I see and dream, and actualizing. Meeting started.  The Highway, underway.  Stats gone over.  I’m getting out to run, that’s it.  That’s what I’ve decided. Business as usual, we assign ourselves the outcomes by what we materialize in the present. Couple things present without warning or notice…

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1-5-26 Back in the office.  Coffee #2.  Well, 3 actually.  Made one at home with the Nurse in an inaugural effort to save money for the wedding and honeymoon, and some other trips we have sketched. 10:31 Feeling more than just a slight slide of confidence.  All journals hit this morning, and content created for…

10:59

Seems like such a weird time on the clock. Music off, and I watch it become 11:00.  Now what. I cannot possibly have anymore coffee. Today’s big accomplishment was pausing, seeing ME and where I am, not turning a minor something into a full personality assessment.  I drank water. Okay, I drank coffee.  I laughed…

A Growth Beg

Saturday mornings lie to us. They whisper that productivity must wear sweatpants or that healing requires silence, candles, and a personality overhaul. I disagree. Healing sometimes looks like laughing at yourself while reheating coffee you forgot about twice.  “Growth” as so many like to say and repeat and put on their car somewhere, can arrive…

08:44, and like that, well……. Music.

That needs to be more a focus.  Nurse and I watching a movie last night, about music and people pursuing it.  I put on some Lofi beats, start writing.  Paper, then typing… Rebuild, restart, open container Of instruments  Time to carve All bite, never a bark More concerned with end than a simple start Missiles…